I'm starting this whole thing over again. I just deleted about 1,000 words of preamble (it's my bad habit) and decided that if anyone was actually gonna read this, I should try to be a little less long winded. So here goes....
I live in downtown Dallas and there's this nice little block-long city park right next to my building. Today there was some kind of festival going on (I noticed this on my way to 7-Eleven, which is katty corner from my building) and there were a LOT of people out! Even more than usual for this kind of thing. There were also an inordinately large number of people milling about with big impressive looking professional DSLRs with fast lenses mounted. Clearly (if the gear was any clue) every one of them a sly and stealthy pro "street shooter", cashing in on the many opportunities for candid people photography, decisive moments, juxtapositions and so forth...and of course, anther golden opportunity to show off all your expensive, high end equipment. I even saw a guy with a big 300/2 type thing mounted (what???) and one of those belt systems packing a couple more big lenses and probably a "backup" body or two, from the look of this doof. All that stuff had to weigh sitxy pounds and I can't imagine he got a single "capture" that wasn't blurry for being too close to focus. But I'm getting off track again and we've all seen this guy before anyway...
My point is, there was indeed a day in the not too distant past when I would have been right in there with them, doing the exact same thing, albeit with a much more civilized and less conspicuous M6 and 50 'Cron (loaded with Tri-X). In fact, for the first...oh, 15 years or so of my photography 'career' I really wanted to be the modern day version of HCB, or Garry Winogrand (or name just about any other mid-century Magnum Photog who did that kind of work). All of my gear acquisitions were directed toward this goal until finally the Leica kit ended all the GAS and I could finally get to work! And none of it was ever very fulfilling. The street shooting I mean. I rarely ever printed anything I liked and I always hated processing and dealing with hundreds and hundreds of frames of 35mm negatives after a shoot or a trip. Digital is much worse in this regard, IMO. It seems easier and you don't have to deal with the chemicals, but...I see these guys in the park with their high end cameras and gear and think about what that must be like. I don't do digital, but I've dabbled a few times, and the prospect of having to "postprocess" 1,500 files after a day of shooting appeals to me not at all! It was bad enough with 35mm negatives, but at least that was something tangible and seemed to have some physical value. To me a digital file, is just...nothing really.
Whenever I looked through my ubiquitous Box-O-Prints, everything I saw in there was the same kind of static, stationary subjects I shoot LF with now. It took me awhile to make the transition and my first big camera was a Hasselblad, which kept me busy for a year or two until finally the standard Cambo 4x5, where I actually learned the value of the large format negative. Or better, the value of the large format way of making photographs.
I wonder how many others here have followed a similar progression. I think for the first years I spent with a camera, learning the technical fundamentals and enjoying playing with the gear, before I even recognized the existence of large format photography, was a completely necessary step in my development as a photographer. With all that, it wasn't until I really got going with large format that I actually became a photographer and the years that came before was just a learning phase, prior to the beginning of the real work. Learning and growing as a photographer will continue for the rest of my life - I would've grown bored and quit a long time ago otherwise - but I do feel like the time I spent walking the streets and the markets trying to be a street shooter was really just my education phase, getting me ready for what I do now every day.
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