I've been on anti-depressants for about 6 years. AND I own a 12x20 that I am not utilizing as I'd like. As PaulB mentions, it is very hard to get a project off the ground. Once it is going, it is not so hard to keep it going, and the going can relieve the depression some.
The technique with which I have had the most success, is shaping your day around the project. For me, projects are in addition to my normal work life, and I find that after a full day's work, the exhaustion and inertia are more than I can overcome for anything that takes concentration and energy. Therefore I have learned, the hard way, to get up before work and devote a block of time to the project. That's when I have the most energy, which I choose to devote to what is most important to me. This is still not easy, but it works somewhat, which is a hell of a lot better than not at all. It's hard enough for me to get going in the morning in the first place, and this just makes it harder. But once up, I have been known to be productive.
You may have a different rhythm of productivity. Figure out what it is, and schedule a daily, or weekly, routine to maximize your productivity for what is most important to you. With limited resources, it is imperative to utilize them as efficiently as possible. And routine is good.
I use the vague term "project" because it affects many other parts of my life than just photography.
Consider attending the Mammoth Camera Workshop this May in Scotland, with or without your ULF. They provide everything, including cameras. I'm thinking about it, to get over the hump.
Finally, don't make things even worse by beating yourself up over your own shortcomings. If you make the effort but can't get there, give yourself the day off, try again some other time.
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